This two are the last mails I got
About the plane ticket. It said that it was the military that had paid for it not him. The person who contacted "the agent" me had a CIA email address. To me he claimed that he had used his pass card as collateral for a loan he took for a dying friend. He said that his founds are frozen because of his special duty.
Good morning babe,
Thanks so much for your message.. It actually makes a whole lot of difference. All i ever wanted from you is your love, attention and understanding. You don't need money to keep me.. you already have me and all i want you to do is showing that you understand and not been too pessimistic. I must say its been a difficult time for me but like they say "tough time never last, tough people do". We will pull through this, as long as we believe and stick together.
I have successfully asked for my flight to be rescheduled for a week, citing the unavailability of someone to replace me as a reason. It really works, they think i'm committed and the boss promised to recommend me for some kind of honor..lol. Now, i have another week to sort my self.. I hope its enough time to do all that's needed. I wish you a good day, talk soon. xoxo
Good morning Sweetie,
Thanks so much for the email. You don't have to apologize, i do understand your frustration. I know that neither one of us had in mind that we would meet someone on the Internet and fall in love this way but it has happened, and for that, i have no regrets. In fact, it is one of the best things that has ever happened to me. For this, and what we share i have God and you to thank. Since we met, you have brought so much joy to me that words can never explain. You have brought life back into a lifeless body that just exist. Since you came into my world you make me realize what it is to Love again and to feel loved. Things are hard right now, and they seem to just be a big blurry mess. I appreciate you doing everything you have done to make this work and i hope and cant wait to prove to you how much i love you and how much i appreciate you doing all you have done for us.
Babe, i know everything will get better... I'm only happy when I'm with you either through chatting or reading your email but i will be truly happy and excited when i walk out of the plane to meet you for the first time. It will be the start of our forever and our life together, it will be the start of happiness and true love. Thinking of you just lights up my world and i just want spend the rest of my life experiencing this. This is really hard and the fact that we haven't met in person makes it harder a times and i hope we will be able to get things done cause i really want to be with you more than you can ever imagine. For millions of years nature embedded in us the notion that the past can teach us a lot about the future. This is very useful for survival, and it is also mostly true with inanimate objects.
With humans the story is somewhat different: it is reasonable to learn from someone's past behaviour about his future behaviour (even though this proves erroneous most of the time). But it is mistaken to learn from someone's behavior about other people's. Our natural tendency is to trust, because we trust our parents. It feels good to really trust. It is also an essential component of love and an important test. Love without trust is dependence masquerading as love. We must trust, it is almost biological. Most of the time, we do trust. We trust the Universe to behave itself according to the laws of physics, our army not to go mad and shoot us all, our nearest and dearest not to betray us.
When trust is broken, the feeling is that a part of us dies, is hollowed out and this hurt so baldy. Babe i will not betray your trust in me as i sit here this minute I'm thinking of everything you have done to me and for us, for you be to have doubt in us hurts me but its not your fault my love i am not blaming you and i want to promise you again this minute that i will make it up to you. I m happy that we did not allow our past to run the present and future because we deserve happiness in life. Not trusting is abnormal and is the natural result of bitter or even traumatic life experiences in the past. Mistrust or distrust are induced not by our own thoughts, nor by some device or machination of ours - but by life's sad circumstances. To continue not to trust is to reward the people who wronged us and made us distrustful in the first place. These people have long abandoned us and still they have a great, malignant, influence on our lives. This is the irony of the lack of trust. I need to tell you this babe, people often disappoint and are not worthy of trust.
They are often arbitrary, treacherous and vicious, or worse, but i want you to know that i am the Man you can trust with your life and you will never regret it for a minute, because my word is my honor. With everything i have been through in life, i have come to a very important conclusion that has helped me live my life the way i do, no betrayal stamps the world irreversibly or eliminates other possibilities, opportunities, chances and people. Time goes on, people meet and part, lovers quarrel and make love, Love ones live and die. It is the very essence of time that it erodes us all to the finest dust. Our only weapon - however crude and maybe unwise - against this unstoppable process is to trust each other, My love, above all things i appreciate you for trusting me and giving us the chance to work. I appreciate you making this happens for us and when i get home, you will be glad you did, every down we have been through this past days will really help our future together. Everything that we have been through together has proved so many law and so many believe wrong cause so many people wont make it this far. I will try catch you on yahoo messenger soon. Have a good day. xoxo
